The Bather, William-Adolphe Bouguereau.
Everything has been getting to me lately- people, events, everything. Idealistically I’d like to put the blame on others… other people have just been annoying and idiotic, shitty things have been happening in my life etc. But really, it’s just me. I’ve come to the point where I’ve stepped back and realised that I need to change a lot, sort my self out. In the past few weeks I’ve turned my back on all the good work I’ve done weight wise and gained a lot of the weight back. I’ve just gotten lazy and lost sight of my goal. Its time to get back on the boat and paddle to the free country (and by free country I mean my ideal weight). Hey, I know that appearance isn’t everything and whatever, but I figure next year is a completely new phase of my life and I want to be a ‘new’ person for that- a much happier person. I don’t want to lose any of my spunk of my personality though. The following list will illustrate how I will become even more (is that possible??) bad ass:
- Become a ‘happy’ weight.
- Do things that make you happy.
- Buy things that make you happy.
- Refrain from seeking others approval.
- Realise that YOU are the only person that realistically matters.
- In saying that you’re going to die alone (this isn’t in a ‘oh no I’m forever alone </3’ sort of thing, but more in a literal sense) do you really want to live alone? (the answer is no).
Sometimes I feel as though I may come off as a little materialistic/vain/self centred, but I feel as though I am one of those people that can clearly see their own faults and I’ve come to realise that my positive attributes outweigh the negative, so this lady is here to stay.
cindepth. 