Sometimes its hard to follows others orders, its even harder to follow your own.

If someone has an almost paranormal ‘hold’ over you and you’re addicted to kissing, its alright isn’t it?

I promised myself I would never go there again with him. I mean, I made myself 100% vulnerable to him, something I rarely, if ever do. He disregarded it completely and pissed off with some other girl. Yet here I am, as soon as the opportunity arises, inviting him over to ‘chill’. I’m not complaining about ‘chilling’ (not complaining at all), but I guess I’m just disappointed with myself. However, we did discuss what happened and he apologised; its easy to say sorry and not mean it right, especially when you know thats what they want to hear and you’re going to get something out of it. He, of course, had to  abruptly leave once he was finished, so to speak, but promised he’d make it up to me and visit Thursday. I guess we shall see what happens then, if it even happens. Maybe he heard the hurt in my voice and realised what he had done, maybe but probably not.